Just Whatever

Something interesting happened to me today. Not worth going into. I'm just gonna chalk it up to a lesson learned. Fuck it, whatever.

Anyway, I finished my commission piece. Super excited about it and it came out AMAZING!

I'm going to show it at The Riverside Arts Exchange on Sunday, October 4th. I'll be there from 4p-9p showing my stuff and mingling and stuff of that nature.

Here's some pic of the process:
This was the stencil of a window I made and laid it ontop of the pane of glass.








Taping the windows so i could get a perfect square.the glass all taped up and ready to be painted.
The finished product...it looks really fucking cool and I'm happy to have done it for who i did it for. He is pleased and wants another



anyway, yay for first commissions, yay for art shows, yay for lessons learned, and yay for now knowing not to drive anywhere unless you are for you get confirmation first...



anyway! have a great rest of the week, drink lots, dont go to work drunk, and have fun.

dueces.

Just Some News

So, I've decided that instead of just letting people see my art...i'd let them buy it. So I posted an advertisement on craigslist.com. and i actually got a hit. someone emailed me today about buying some stuff.

I'm not the only one who likes my art work! lol

anyway, i'm also participating in an art show out here in the I.E at Back to the Grind coffee shop.

The Riverside Arts Exchange

On top of all this, i'm getting out of this shit hole of a house and moving into a different apartment, which, i have to be honest, is causing a little bit of anxiety, but im stoked about it anyway.

So all of this is super exciting and super yay.

on top of which, thanks to those who've been there for me, i'm finally being okay with being single. like embracing it and being excited about it all.

There are guys...

that are hot...


that think im hot...




HOLY SHIT! REVELATION!



i'm happy.


i'm drunk.

dueces. enjoy your weekend. be good. be safe. drink lots!

MUAH!

Just Some Art Therapy

I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and a half. Don't ask why. Its a long drawn out story that I don't particularly care to rehash out in my mind over and over again. But I needed an outlet to get all the feelings of angst and pain and frustration out. So I did the only thing I could think of. Here's the documented photos.
AHAHAHAHAHA...so yeah....there you have it. dueces!

Just Messy

Here I am...just finished a piece that came spontaneously...i love things that come like that. Just feels good to go with the flow. I think that might be a reason that people have issues in life with work and other things. Because they don't just go with the flow. Its really easy. just relax and go where the wave takes you. kick back. lol anyway, speaking of the flow.

I need some water right about now. the green and gold that is on my hands...is now rubbing off on my keys to my laptop. bah. who cares.

Here is the piece. It's called disease. I think I want to do a series of these.

there you have it. alright kiddies. see you on the flip side. I need to wash up.

DUECES!

Just Might Turn Lesbian

Yeah. I said it. In general, I am disappointed with the way everything is going. I've been trying really hard to keep it all together and keep my head on straight. I just get so frazzled. I need someone that will go do things with me. Be active. Take a walk. Go in the water. Ride a bike. Go hiking. I don't have that and I want it so badly. Someone that won't get mad at me for studying. Someone that won't laugh at my paintings. I know that the love it there. It's just the little things that aren't happening. How am I supposed to grow as a person if I don't have that sort of encouragement and understanding around me? I'm thinking this all might be over soon. I can't take it any more. Wash the dishes for once. Pick up for once. DO SOMETHING, PLEASE. I shouldn't be the only person doing things for the other. Why don't you serve me dinner for once? I'm tired. I'm frustrated. And I'm feeling unappreciated. What to do what to do.

Right now there is no bright side. I've been facing way too much disappointment lately. I swear if just ONE thing went right the way its planned this week, I will be forever grateful at that little miracle. But, alas, I have false hopes for I know that with the light of the day, comes another dark storm of being let down.

ugh, I'll get over it.

dueces.

Just No Paint

ACK! I'm out of white spray paint...and of course, i have no money for more. not that it's that expensive...but lets just say that i only have $20 in my bank and have no room for extras...


URGH.

so i now have an old painting that's only half covered in white. it's getting painted over because it's old and ugly and from a long time ago. SO! it's getting painted over. all white first, then black and silver. then a rather large bright green dollar sign...with some sparkles...

it's going to look cool. shut up lol


anyhow, on the bright side, tomorrow im heading out to somewhere. a beach. i dont know which beach yet. but some beach. either salt creek or newport. prolly newport. it's closer and easier to get to. oh! i went to newport today in fact, after the library...and i got this pic:
i'm going to call it Surfers in Waiting.

there were NO waves or swells out there today. so they were all just waiting. For as far as the eye could see, waiting surfers. lol i dig it.

anyway kiddos. LOVE YA!


Dueces!

Just Some Pain

really really really fucking horrible pain. It's nothing I haven't felt before. I just can't stand when it keeps me up like this. I should be sleeping soundly. exhausted from the days events. but no. I'm here. blogging about this awful pain I've had in my knees since i was in high school. Have I ever gotten it checked out? No. Why? honestly? because i'm afraid of what they'll tell me. I've gotten it looked at by school nurses and a few physical therapists that ive spoken to through work, but never anything more. the cartilage in my left knee is down to nothing and in my right knee is getting close to becoming the same way. I suppose thats what i get for not wearing my brace while working out.

Mt. Rubidoux. My Death March as I lovingly call it. depending on the trails you take...it can be anywhere from 2 miles to 4 miles round trip. up and down...
this is some of the veiw from the top. it kicks my ass every time. but it feels good to do it. there are 2 trails that meet at the top. one is a less intense incline from the bottom that is 2 miles up and 2 miles down. then there is the devil's asshole climb (as i like to call it). Its a major steep trail only a mile long. almost going straight up the mountain. The view and spectacles on the way up and down are amazing. So much history has comes up and down this mountain. so...if you're ever in the area and need a good work out or just a nice walk...hit me up. I'll make you cry. Or at least the mountain will. I mean, it's making me wish I never went. ack, it's late. i'm going to try to rustle up some vicoden or ibuprophen or something to exile this pain temporarly from my body.

good night all. stay safe, stay warm, drink lots....DUECES!

Just a Perfect Ending

I was having an alright day today, then, i got the brilliant idea to go to the beach for the sunset...

BEST IDEA EVERRRR! lol

really it was GORGEOUS. i've never witness a more beautiful and perfect sunset. the sand was cool and soft, with small touches of warmth where the sun had kissed it earlier. Walking down the blocks toward the pier i took this picture:THIS

is where i need to be. everyday. for the rest of my life. i was recently telling a friend of mine that the beach is the ONLY spot where i can breath. I can stop. I can actually hear my heart beat and know that i'm still alive. Its the place where everything comes together in one wave. I love that you can hear the ocean's heart beat. everytime the waves hit the shore....and then, if you're feeling like you'd rather just hear nothing. swim out, past the crashing of the waves. get behind them, into where the water just starts to swell. That's where i was today. in silence. I could hear myself. i could just listen. i stood out there for about a half hour, just wading, and watching the sky.

I found my happy place. I found my peace there. Alot of things became clear. and although i still have a lot of questions, i've found that it all just takes time. finally when this time came around:
I came on shore, said thank you to the sun for another beautiful day, and packed my things. it was the perfect ending to the week.

anyway guys...enjoy the weekend. be safe. drink lots. have fun.

dueces!

Just Out of the Ordinary

So...here's something new...i had an awesome day today, but i was craving and yearning for something more...the beach.

this is: My Perfect Beach

My Perfect Beach


brown sugar sand
seaweed piles
beach

crystal blue waters
hot sun
beach

warm summer day
jetty rocks
beach

cool salty nights
bare foot
beach

sun bleached hair
golden tan
beach

surfers riding waves
seagulls squawking
beach

Just Another Day

Sorta....no...it was.

ok not really. so far i've had a really awesome day. although, now i have to drive to fontana...to pick up my mom whos stuck in LA till like idk when. soooo it's going to be an adventure.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh watch this commercial:


I couldn't help myself today when I was on youtube watching it...LAUGHED MY AASS OFF....really, I did.

You know what i've been really into lately...people watching. Their mannerisms, the way they move, the way they talk to other people, the way look at others...it's all very interesting. For instance: Dancing. People LOVE to dance. and it's so easy too...flail an arm...or a leg...

its all very abstract.

Something about a tune on the radio that makes you want to rock out, get funky, get down, to boogie, groove, shake, rattling, and rolling has to be something from the gods, right? Makes you want to move your arms and legs in a none threatening way so that you can move across the floor while looking oh so cool? HAS TO BE THE GODS!

They have blessed us with this most hilarious and fun form of entertaining.




Anyway, today's been a good day. I can sleep well...I am happy.


The end


or is it...





ANYWAY! Dueces babies! have a great rest of the week. and Enjoy the weekeND!



DRINK, PARTY, LIVE!!